One of the hardest decisions you'll ever face in life is choosing whether to walk away or try harder to make things work. It's certainly easy to walk away but at the back of my mind I was thinking "where's the fulfillment in that? Ain't I suppose to fight for it and never give up no matter how hopeless it may seem?" Well, that was the ideal thing to do and yes I tried really hard to keep things together and I hoped that things will be better at one point. But no matter what I do everything just slowly slipped away and grew cold. I tried to keep battling the slew of emotions and paddled through life for months but it only led me to emotional death. It's as though my body continues to live but my emotions were no longer functioning. My so-called life was in complete standstill. I was very much aware that letting go of the things/people I was already comfortable of having were not in my priority list. Because it would mean I would be left empty-handed or to put it simply "I will be left alone". Hence, I became too complacent and let these things get the best of me. My vision was clouded with promises I thought were genuine. But reality didn't took long to kick me square in the ass and I came to realize this  has to stop. This is no longer benefiting me and I've  already underwent so much pain, wretchedness and self-loathing. I've already cried buckets of tears and questioning myself over and over again with, "Why did it happen to me?, What have I done wrong?, What if I've done better than expected? blah... blah... blah... and the never ending relapse" became too tiresome on my end. Its already robbing my inner peace and happiness. From there, I decided to gradually separate myself from the energy of uncertainty and started to form a safe environment. I really owe it to myself to live in harmony and regain my self-respect. I need to collect my thoughts and put things back in order once and for all. More so, stick it to my stubborn head that there are certain things and people you can no longer hold on to and fight for. That there are some practices, and some individuals you keep on hurtling_ will only destroy you. Besides, dwelling on the past and hurtful events of life will only put me into an emotional turmoil.

"Elevation requires separation", simple as it is. As I transform myself into a better human being I am called to be, I slowly realized that I should be surrounded with things and people who are worth keeping . Why waste my time to meaningless/pointless non-living and living things? Time is expensive and a valuable commodity so it's better to spend it in a more worthy investment. I believe I am quite better, wiser and guarded now than a few months back. (But this is not to say I am completely healed but I'll get there sooner or later). I have faced a lot of conflicts in life way more burdensome than this,and still managed to get up. Now I know what I want in my life; the ones that bring unpretentious happiness, pure heart and honest intentions. I will no longer settle for anything less and that I will only associate myself with things and people of good quality over convenience. It's only now that I fully understand the concept of, "Everything happens for a reason" ; and it can only mean one thing, the Man above has an amazing plan for me instead. That said, I know He will put the right things and the right people in my life. That will eventually motivate me to do good, encourage me to do the best thing possible and will help me to be a better person.  So for now, I will take this opportunity to reach my full potential.