Sometimes you wouldn't really know or couldn't explain why people act in an odd way. It's as if you always have to remind them of the things they should do or to be more sensitive enough. As I dissected the details in my head, I came to realize that my existence has barely touched the inner thoughts of the "individual". That I was still a stranger in the "individual's" perspective. And the connection I thought was deep was apparently shallow. (maybe just maybe.. I don't know) The "individual" was too strong like a man of steel that I could hardly make the "individual" voice out his emotion. The individual's emotion must be kept since it would be quite a shame on the individual's part for others to see. Clearly, I just can't force someone to do such thing as voicing out one's emotion which I know from the very start because "the individual is what the individual is" (and I can't change that and I don't have the intention of changing one's life.) It's just disheartening that the individual perpetually gives me the idea that I'm in the category of "pwede na yan/ bara-bara" and the individual doesn't seem to notice. Though it must have been my fault 'cause I let the individual do it and I would always let it pass and laugh about it even. And so, that led the individual assume everything's A-okay and normal.

Maybe I'm just overreacting or over analyzing things (which I am so good at-> this sounds negative) but this situation has become so habitual. But I know in times like this the only thing that I could think of to outweigh the nugatory thoughts is to patiently understand and to implement ways to foster optimism. Well, that's the least I could do for now and I know I'm not running out of hope that in time, things will unfold as it should.