Hindi ko mawari kung ano nga ba talaga ang aking saloobin sa mga nangyayari ngayon. Napaka-simple lang naman talaga ang ninanais ko_ ang sumaya. Sabihin niyo mang "baduy" o gasgas na aking mga pinagsasabi, yun naman talaga ninanais ko. (taon na ang aking binilang) Ngunit sadyang napakahirap kamitin.

Pilit kong ikinukubli ang kalungkutan sa likod ng aking masiyahing mukha (lagi nalang bang ganito?) Paminsan minsan aking napapansin sa bawat pagdaan ng araw; unti-unti akong nilalamon ng aking kalungkutan na para bang wala ng pag-asang maka-kawala. At tila ba tinatahak ko ang daan patungo sa mundong walang saysay. Kinikimkim ang lahat ng sama ng loob na marahil sa isang pitik lamang, ako ay sasabog katulad ng isang bulkan. At hangga't maaari iniiwasan ko ang mag-bulalas ng saloobin dahil alam kong  matatalim na salita ang marinig mula sa aking bibig.



....... Alam kong ito ay isa lamang sa mga mapapait na pagsubok mula sa "itaas". Hindi man agaran ang pagpawi sa aking kalungkutan. Nakakasiguro akong ito ay aking malalampasan.

L.O.P (Long Overdue Post)

Honestly words cannot describe how happy i feel right now! :D 

Yes these were the exact words I uttered (well even posted on my facebook account) when I found out I passed the Interior design board exam. As my sister commented "Para naman nanalo sa beauty contest. che!" Truth be told I actually did (somehow), except it's not a beauty contest per se. 

After all the hardships of taking the most difficult and nerve-racking exam it has finally paid off. Three months of hibernating, social networking sites had to be in pending mode, had to miss get-togethers and worse no television in my dorm. (during weekdays but on weekends I find the time to catch up some tv watching maybe for about an "hour or less")_Not so me but I had to make few sacrifices in order to attain what I got right now.  Imagine how frustrating it was and my only form of entertainment was listening to FM radio,(Thanks to Magic 89.9 Boys Night Out and RX 93.1 Morning rush) Plus, phone calls at the end of the day from the Architect hahaha! which I always look forward to since it has kept me sane thus far at least.

I'm really grateful for the blessing I have received; really BLESSED beyond I deserve!!! Thank you God for your unconditional love, patience, mercy and forgiveness! And thank you for the people who supported me all the way. (Family and friends!!) Thank you to St. Jude and St. Joseph of Cupertino!! Prayer to St. Joseph of Cupertino for Success in Examinations 

Below are few images to sum up the hibernation period and its blissful aftermath:

Review Materials (with all those manila papers, multi-color pens, etc.)

1.) the Design GO portable kettle for my everyday cup of tea, 2.)Weekly rasyon ng pagkain hahaha 3).my mom would always label the tupper ware with my name on it hahaha! 4.) silvanas, mars,cookies and susan baker tea were given by the Architect and my bestfriend  Oath-taking  (with solemn affirmation)

  Psalm 30:12 – “That my heart may sing to you and not be silent. O Lord my God, I will give you thanks for ever.”

i've always kept it inside and never let it out. It was out of fear that I have decided to shut my mouth (truth be told reasons are just plain weird but it was something deep). And yes there were nights I would cry myself to sleep, sorting through the rubble of the i-don't-know-scenario (i will never disclose any information about it, let's just leave it at that) Though I still bring a big smile on my face and I'm trying to hide the sadness I feel inside. (nothing has changed).

If only "apathetic capsules"  are available at hand I'd buy more than 100 tablets. sigh...

On friends and enemies
I am displeased with the company of friends
To whom my bad qualities appear to be good;
They fancy my faults are virtues and perfection;
My thorns they believe to be rose and jessamine.
Say! where is the bold and quick enemy
To make me aware of my defects?
Sage advice
If people injure thee, grieve not;
Because neither rest nor grief come from the people.
Be aware that the contrasts of friend and foe are from God,
Because the hearts of both are in His keeping.
Although the arrow is shot from the bow,
Wise men look at the archer!
Oh thou! who showest virtues on the palms of the hand,
But concealest thy errors under the armpit,
What wilt thou purchase, oh vainglorious fool,
On the day of distress with counterfeit silver?